Long day working, it is 12:29 AM

And I just simply miss my Dad and Mom so very much. Regardless of past transgressions, remember life is short. Love is, well, LOVE. And please just LOVE and practice FORGIVENESS.

I miss my parents so very much. I love you Mom and Dad.

And I love new adventures……especially where I am going to spend the first Thanksgiving with both my parents being deceased.

Gratitude. My favorite word these days.

Cheers…….and will fill in the details. Needless to say…..this holiday season will be really weird.

Losing your parents is really not all that fun.

Love to all who take the time to read my rambling.


Family, Friendship, and Frogs (oh…and Toby and Meelo)

76 is the high today in Denver. Another amazing day.

Please pray (however you do, for those affected near Fort Collins. Such a devastating fire.

I have a good friend visiting in Denver. She was in Boulder visiting her children. She came to Denver to meet me at my house. In the past I have always let her rule our plans…..I am easy going that way. Of late? I am really sick of it.

She needed to go to Castle Rock to drop some belongings off I have moved for her across the country. Then she wanted to go to the outlets. Back in the day….I would have been all over it.

But I had just come from visiting my Dad. And I promised him I would visit later and he said he would love to see my friend.

So….she was annoyed I wanted to come home and chill for a few on my patio. Then I needed to shower. She said she was bored and wanted me to forgo my shower. I thought a better idea than the outlets was just taking a nice walk around Cherry Creek. She thought I meant the mall. I did not.

She clearly left irritated to go to Castle Rock alone. She said that as I did not want to go to the outlets she had no desire to visit my father. That is clearly screwed up. She has known my parents for almost 30 years.

She has not experienced the illnesses that I have with both my parents. And Godbless her Mom is a cancer survivor. She is just different than me. She easily gives opinions but does not easily accept other opinions. I have another long term friend who is the same way. I believe covered in a soft pale silk that masks reality.

I am raw. I see reality for what it is and work every day to take one step forward. These days, I am blessed with leaps and bounds in many directions.

But I am lover, and a maker of mistakes, hopefully much wiser, and I am saddened about the judgement that lives in this world. And I am happy I have found a path that is honest, heartfelt, and true to myself.

I am so grateful for all of the ‘mini-miracles- I experience every day.

Perhaps the notion that people are brought into your life for a reason, a short period of time, to touch each other and leave a positive truth, is all we can hope for.

Happy June 11.


Election Day….and Notes to Self

Election Day….and Notes to Self.


Election Day….and Notes to Self

I want to write a book. But, on top of everything else on my plate, the task seems daunting. So, in the spirit of truly hoping to help other women, I will take it one minute at a time and just use this blog to write my chapters. At this point in my life, I have lost everything but have also gained so much and want to share.

1. Note about this election…..I take it so very seriously….on many levels. This country is in trouble. However……on a humorous level…..
a. I am curious to know what commercials are going to fill in once we are RELIEVED of watching or listening to the awful ads.
b. Talking politics on a first blind date….not a great idea. And I am NOT the one who did it. Please don’t do that…that is like a 3rd or 4th date thing.
c. I guess that is the end of my election humor. I need to check out The Onion today. I am sure I will have a good laugh there.
d. Oh…..save your silver and gold……you never know when that will come in handy. Apparently.

2. Note on loss and grief…….
a. It just sucks.
b. My sister and I lost our Dad. And we are grieving differently. Get help. I know I am going to see a therapist. I feel lost and empty. He was my purpose for so long.
c. I keep reminding myself that he is with my Mom and is at peace. That makes me smile.
d. Take one moment at a time.
e. Don’t be self destructive…..just breathe…..get a pedicure instead of finding an unhealthy crutch. And let your nail person pick the color. I know I did. And she picked a happy color. One small thing brightened up my day!
f. Get pimple medication. I broke out on my chin. Yuck.

3. There is so much good in this world. Marathoner’s came together in New York to help those who have lost so much because of Sandy. That is very cool. A prime example of turning a potentially upsetting situation into a way to make our world a better place. Completely dumfounded how Bloomberg could even fathom running that race. Dumb.

4. How does a 5 lb. Maltese seem to take over a queen size bed and leave me on the edge of bed? And I don’t MOVE him! I love that dog!!!!!

5. I started this blog to cook an ethnic dish from each country from around the world. That is still my goal but……life got in the way. And now? I want to VISIT each country and taste that dish….then come home and cook it. So much has happened since I started this blog. I just want to share my life experiences with anyone who takes the time to read. I am still cooking…..

Random thoughts this morning……and on that note, as I need to shower and get to work,

I wish you all a great Election Day. Vote your heart. And make a difference each day. If it is nothing more than a simple smile to brighten someone’s day.

Smiles……..

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That is my Dad. He Rocked!


The Stanley Cup, NBA Playoffs, Darth Buckeye and Marty

The Stanley Cup, NBA Playoffs, Darth Buckeye and Marty.


learning to blog…..learning to live….sharing life


The Stanley Cup, NBA Playoffs, Darth Buckeye and Marty

On the topic of the Stanley Cup – I dislike both teams but, for a mostly irrational and emotional reason, I hope the Kings KICK the Devils. And at 4 -0 in game three…..seems to be looking that way.

On the topic of the NBA playoffs….I love basketball as my daughter played back in her day, but….I never watch the NBA. Except for now. Go Celtics. Go Oklahoma City. And if they pair up…..gotta go with the underdog. Always. Everyone, every team deserves their day!

On the topic of Darth Buckeye. What nut would take a Darth Vader helmet and a football helmet and combine the two to ensure that all who know him knows that Ohio State rules? Painted and totally hilarious. Is there something about some Michigan rivalry? hmmmmm. This is the goof head of a lawyer I seem to be dating these days. Wicked smart. Super hilarious. Heart of Gold. Lover of Meelo and Toby. He is my crushboy. I am smitten. And…..he is YOUNGER……gotta love that!!!! He is Good People!

On the topic of Toby and Meelo. Toby is a meathead. A solid 17 pounds of total boy who wants to play. Meelo? Well. Spoiled rotten by me and wanted NOTHING to do with Toby for two weeks.
Darth Buckeye and Sadie’s Mom have been keeping me calm and trying to help me not give up on the family expansion plan. Prince Meelo is finally coming around. He now goes after Toby and tries to exert his POWER. Meelo is clearly Alpha. Toby is clearly both cute and just simply wants to play. ALL THE TIME.

The entire interaction I should post on You Tube as a lesson to us all about patience, love and relationships. Always evolving.

On the topic of Marty. Please just pray for peace. My heart aches with the dread of the call I fear is coming coming soon. My hero. My dear sweet amazing Dad.

On the topic of jobs. I finally figured out why I do not have one yet.

http://www.theonion.com/video/high-unemployment-rate-linked-to-one-man-with-4200,28309/

And finally, on the topic of my two new companies……so so excited. Everything coming together one step at a time and falling into a beautiful path to success. Thank You God, Mom, Angels, Universe and good frickin’ Karma!! Gratitude…..always……

Although I do prefer the Buffs…..may the Force of all that is good in the World be with you. Screw the Buckeyes…..even if I am dating a fan. lol……

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